I ain't single people!!!

 For those of you who think I'm single,

I ain't single.
I'm just on an unending blind date,
In a cozy place
Where the embers in the fireplace never stop burning
And the cool air is never just enough,
So i keep hyperventilating,
I keep taking deep breaths
But guess what my date does?
She saunters out and drags a friend in,

My oh my,
She brings with her the sudden cough,
Who only shows up when I'm asked a question in a crowd,
As if that ain't enough,
She calls up other friends and invites them over.
Lousy as hell, sweaty palms comes soon enough
And he ain't even graceful enough to wait
Till he invades my space.
Soon enough, shuttering lids arrives,
Thankfully, he only shows up
When someone stares at me for a minute too long.

The last person to arrive
Is stuttering voice.
Sure enough, he hushes me up
Whenever it's time for me
To put that mouth to use.
Surprise! Surprise!
Butterflies arrive
And damn! She ain't even gracious
Enough to sit with the others,
She just goes to my belly
And occupies everywhere
So that there's no place for the food
I would love to eat.

For those of you who think I'm single,
I ain't single,
I'm in a long-term,
Seemingly toxic but committed
Relationship with anxiety.
Sure enough, Ladies and gents,
She wears the pants in this relationship on most days
But today,
When she held my hands to prevent me from soaring,
I kicked her right were it hurts
And permitted my hands to post this poem.
I'll hug her in the next breath though
Because as you already know,
We are in a committed relationship.
©️Otubu Anjola-Oluwa.